2026-09-12
There's little time to be anything.
I like many others have found my mechanisms of thought often hijacked by roboslop. This is in no way slowed by spending lots of time doing software development.
I often grapple with my attemts to remain Human. The dillema seems to come from a distinct lack of Axioms by which to live by. My prior niave belief in internal purpose was soon dissapointed by base hedonism. I am no longer convinced of a "perfectly guided direction" as I hoped for, and see myself falling to old abstract distractions.
The Western mental masturbation seems to fill some temporary whole. Yet I dont have the patience nor conviction to translate my behavior. A neccissary trait of the "stateless mental outlaw" is plasticity but remeber, Individuallism has always failed to recognize approaching social crisis.
I think the result is much simpler than the discourse makes it out to be. Remain human, as you are human. The realisation of magic only seeds the need for meta-magic. Labor defines joy, etc. etc. External acceleration of thought, of progress, of any metric is orthogonal to my own samsara deltavee. Untill I can become unHuman.